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Puff no longer went to play along the cherry lane 🐲

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I used to be a big marijuana enthusiasts after I bought my first few pre-rolls. Smoking pot was a lot of fun. But as I’ve smoked more over time, and it’s become a more normal thing, it’s kind of lost it’s specialness and novelty to me. The colors aren’t so vibrant, the leaves not so fascinating to watch flutter or the ripples on the lakes and steams as interesting.

I’ve tried mixing cannabis with caffine to retard the sedative effects and enhance the europhia. Too often when I’m high it’s actually hard to be creative and think clearly. But that’s what I want – more insight into the world around me. And I’m not convinced the drug is doing that. I don’t smoke every day, it’s more something to enjoy up in the wilderness, by the fire and in the hammock, still I wish it could give me more clarity and discover who I am. Maybe my hope for the drug was mostly just a pipe dream.

Bothered by ads for dentures

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My mom has been struggling for some time to get an appointment to get dentures put in. Not covered by insurance – Medicare doesn’t cover dental – even if you have the cash it’s ridiculous how hard it is to get the care you need.

Moreover, these ads you often see on my blog and others are scams – usually they are about generating clicks for dentists or other medical services – not connecting people to needed health care. As I don’t have internet at home and sometimes connect at my parents I get associated with targeted ads for them.

At the same time I’m a bit worried about my own teeth which since turning forty have really had a downtown despite or maybe because of my healthy eating habits – all that apple cider vinager, fresh fruit, oatmeal and fiber from veggies – is kind of bad even if I’m skipping out on all the processed crap. I do floss daily now that I’m in my forties, though I’m not so good at camp with doing this and I should have done more as a younger adult. I often burn my gums too eating hot but delicious food fresh off the stove. So they’re sore at times too.

I don’t know. It’s just sad so many of us can’t get the kind of dental care we all need. And I’m quite worried about my own dental health and where it’s leading me.

People often idolize my life

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I talk to people with families and homesteads and they often idolize my life of traveling, riding trail, camping and kayaking in state and national forests. How I do so much on my own, how I manage to get away and travel so much without a home, a family or livestock to look over.

I mean they’re not wrong but at the same time I do wish I had a place to call home, something more permanent than a moldy apartment and a two or three night stand in the wilderness. But I know what I would have to give up to have a place called home.