What is happiness?

You know that’s a really profound question that I really yet to find the answer to. While I didn’t view my dream of what is a good life – the off-grid homestead – as materialistic now I’m coming to the sad realization that it mostly is. Happiness is ultimately not what you buy – be it a big screen TV, pigs and cattle or a tractor with a manure spreader – but your ability to find Zen and meaning in the now.

For too often I’ve been consumed with the thoughts of tomorrow, planning for that house on the hill with that burn barrel out back and cows mooing in the field with the big jacked up truck and four wheelers in the front yard. Maybe not the glamorous homesteads you see in the magazine but some working land. All the thinking of the accrued benefits of hardwork and saving. I was concerned about the memories of the past. But maybe those things don’t matter as much as I used to think they once did.

There is no time but the present. It’s not to say that the past has no impact on the present or that today’s actions won’t impact tomorrow. But in many ways those things are meaningless as the only thing that exists is the present. That said, I still continue to work for the future even while I try to find more of now.

College Graduates by Congressional District

The Congressional District with lowest percentage of college graduates is David G. Valadao (R) in California's 21st Congressional District (Bakersfield-Fresno Valley). Only 9.5% of residents have a college degree there.

The most college-educated Congressional District is Carolyn Maloney (D) in New York 12th Congressional District (Manhattan-Brooklyn). 73.2% of residents there have graduated from college.

College Graduates by Congressional District

Struggling with the changes of getting older

At age 35, I often struggle to figure out what is better to do today versus wait for tomorrow.πŸ‘΄ Every year as a mature and get older, options close, roads not taken are forever closed off to me. If you overshoot your exit, you can’t back up on the highway. There is no turning around the clock of time. ⏳I will never be as young as I currently am, I will become less physically able to do certain things thatπŸƒ I once had the potential to do while I was younger.

Time per se is not a bad thing. A little money saved each week over time adds up πŸ“ˆand compounds both as an investment and with interest.πŸ’° Money opens up options, and buying with cash is always much cheaper and flexible than credit. Cash just goes so much farther.πŸ’΅

While by no means should I take the first exit on the highway,🚧 I should be a thoughtful observer of every exit that I pass on by. A some point the highway of life may come to an abrupt end – accidents, cancer, heart attacks – sometimes strike people much too young.🐍 But honestly I know it’s worth the risk as their are better exits ahead on the straight and narrow highway, 🌻and just because a sign is shiny and new doesn’t mean that is the exit you want to your ultimate destination.

My conservative estimate is that I will likely live until age 70. Maybe longer, maybe less. 😯In ten years from now I’ll have 20 years in with the state, fifteen it will be 25. I’m generally happy with my course, I have a great job, a beautiful office with million dollar views of the mountains.πŸ—» I think I’m fairly good at my job. So even if I decide at age 45 or 50 to do something else, I’ll have many options still ahead of me. But I should really pay attention to what’s coming up on the highway of life, 🎰and give every passing exit another thought before leaving it forever in the rear view mirror.πŸ”°