After all these years working in politics – as a researcher, a coordinator and then Deputy Director of Research Services – the position I really enjoy is now being the Director of Data Services. Simply said, I like working with data.
None of this should be a surprise, as a teenager I was the quintessential computer geek, first with my Macintosh computers and then Linux. I’ve used Linux exclusively for years outside of work, I became good at using the Unix text utilities over the years for reasons of convenience and necessity.
For years I wanted to get away from computers, I have nothing but disdain for the culture that celebrates materialism and is filled with the latest high technology. I loved the life of working on the Capitol Hill, although maybe not so much the all nighters, sleeping under the desk. Politics is a lot about clever wit and the use of power to get big things done.
But computers and working with data are a lot of fun too. Nothing beats coming up with a clever little shell script, some sql, a C program or R script to fix a problem. A good script can automate and save a lot of labor and product produce better output. I know I’d rather be checking the output of a program I wrote then doing something by hand.
The neat thing about my work is the tools I use – – especially the Unix text utilities are really simple and old but work incredibly well when piped together. As many of our databases are over 10 million records, it can take a fair amount of processing power on the main frame where they run, but the next result is useful data extracted from the system using simple, reliable tools.
There is all this talk these days about machine learning and advanced computing. But there is something wonderful about the simple old tools we use at work. And I enjoy working with them, along with the people. Plus I know every day I’m refining my skills, building my resume, and developing a better life and future that I will be able to take and put forward towards my future life goals.
This is as far as I got on the Stewart Creek Trail. Despite wearing my muck boots I thought this seemed a little more soggy then I was prepared to get in the mud.
For fourteen years, a truck named “Big Red” was the constant in my life. Now that he’s retired, I find myself staring at that number—fourteen. It is the exact span of time sitting between today and 2040, the year I plan to hang up my own hat. When I tell people I have fourteen years left until I retire from state service, they often react as if that time is an eternity. But I look at the empty spot where Big Red used to sit and realize that fourteen years is nothing more than a heartbeat.
I remember 2011 with a clarity that defies the calendar. I can still feel the pride of driving that truck off the lot and the excitement of outfitting him for camping in the spring of 2012. Back then, I was in my late twenties with far less gray hair and a much narrower view of the world. To my friends, it seems like I bought that truck just “a few years ago.” In reality, a seventh of my life has evaporated since then. This trick of perspective is exactly why I am eyeing the exit now.
By 2040, I will be 57 years old. With thirty years of pension contributions and a lifetime of aggressive saving, the math says I’ll be ready to leave Albany behind. But the math isn’t what drives me; it’s the physical reality of the ticking clock. I want to build my off-grid homestead while my back is still strong and my legs are still steady. There is a specific kind of wisdom in knowing when to leave while you’re ahead—before the inevitable decline that comes to everyone who stays “long in the tooth” for too long.
My new rig, an F-350 SuperDuty named “Old Smokey,” is a heavy reminder of this timeline. When I tell people that this truck will likely be the one to carry me into my retirement, they are floored. Every dollar I sink into its bedliner or cap feels like a countdown. Like any material thing, Old Smokey will eventually wear out, just as I will. But for now, he represents the bridge to my future. These next few years are my window to travel freely before the responsibilities of the homestead—the goats and the hogs that don’t care about vacation schedules—take root. I suspect that if I build a life I actually want to live, the very concept of a “vacation” might become obsolete.
The next fourteen years will undoubtedly be heavy. I expect to lose my parents and make the transition back to the country, perhaps to their land. So much is unpredictable; life offers no guarantees. But I know that these years will disappear like a few quick tokes of cannabis smoke by a roaring campfire, or a few summer afternoons spent drifting down a creek in an inner tube.
Time is a relentless thief, but it is also a teacher. It has taught me that fourteen years is both a lifetime and a weekend. I plan to spend the remaining hours of my “work life” with my eyes wide open, honoring the gear and the body I have left, knowing that while nothing lasts forever, the life I’m building is worth the race against the sun.
