Leaving in a jacked up pickup truck πŸ›»

Heading down to Stockbridge Mass and Sheffield CT via blue highways. Have a few trails of interest to explore but no real plan but to be home by 9 pm. I never travel anymore, need to see some new places. Bike is going to be down through next week awaiting parts, so not bringing that.

Honestly, I worry too much about saving for retirement and that off grid cabin but honestly I shouldn’t stay home and try to sleep it off for the next 13 years until 2038. Gas is affordable and my truck is going to rust away even if I never turn it on to go anywhere. I get it, I can’t completely waste these coming years, they have to have some meaning and fun besides saving money for that better tomorrow that is not guaranteed.

Part of what holds me back is my anxiety. What to do if my pickup truck breaks down or I get into a crash. Nothing suggests that will happen, my truck is making just the usual noises but it’s always in my brain. I hate the unfamiliar roads and especially the express ways which I’m trying to stay off. Did I remember to shut off the stove before I left? I need to get gas. My gawd the truck rides like shit on these rough roads with its beat to shit suspension and rotted out under carriage.

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