Here’s the problem I face …

I have spent so many of my young adult years in the wilderness, driving the back roads of the hilltowns and it’s something I really crave.

The thing about it is remote country like this — it’s remote.

By definition, remote means far away. Not close to the city, a long ways from work. I so want to live out in a place like this, no compromises, but I have seriously contemplate the costs of commute — the fuel, the time, winter weather, traffic, the automobiles quickly worn out and discarded.

The hell of it is, it’s not really a money thing, as I have worked hard to develop my career over the past 20 years, investing responsibly and living frugally in hope to live some day back out in the country. Moving back out to country is going to cost a hell of a lot more then my dumpy apartment or something similarly dumpy in another part of the city.

And I don’t really see much in a purpose to moving to suburban location, or an exurban location with only a few acres of land, and yuppie neighbors right next door. Why would I do that? So I could throw more money away meaningless, burning it up in tailpipe and lawn more? If I want to be rural, I want to be truly rural where I can have freedom, not be living in a subdivision with a motorized commute. It would just be stupid to do that.

In my mind, a rural suburban subdivision that smells like cow shit is really no better than living in the city.