Good morning! Happy National Hot Dog Day. 🌭

Going to be a hot one on this Thursday, so a hot dog good light meal, especially if your on vacation which I will be a week from now..

Cloudy, fog and 65 degrees in Delmar, NY. 🌫 Calm wind. The dew point is 64 degrees. Kind of a foggy start to the morning but it’s expected to warm up quickly and be fairly sunny for a change. Already the sun is trying to peak through.

Out for the morning walk 🚶🏻. It looks like they aren’t going to put a crosswalk signal 🚦by the high school 🚸 which is good as I’m thinking it will be more of a nuisance than help. They just replaced the pads for the blind that help them find the intersection and added some warning ⚠ signs for turning cars. 🚘 Not sure what the wire cut was for but it doesn’t look like they are adding a signal.

After such a damp and humid summer the mold is getting nasty again in my apartment. 👃🏻 I did some more scrubbing but this is a problem every year. Plus I think I smell a dead mouse 🐁some where in the kitchen. So I’ve been scrubbing things down with ammonia. ⚗️ My apartment is so dirty and rundown but it’s cheap and on the bus line. 🚌 And by the library 📚 and the park 🏞 . Eventually I’ll own my own land, paid with using cash and I’ll have a lot more options. 🏡 I do make good money 💵 but I don’t have access to much of it because it all goes into retirement, investment and savings accounts.

Some how that cleaning has raised my anxiety levels, 😳 that and because I can’t decide if I should get my oil changed and the tires rotated on my truck before vacation. Lately the truck hasn’t been burning much oil 🛢 and I can probably go another month or 1,500 miles before I need another oil change. The tires are getting louder and louder from the cupping but they aren’t far from fully worn out. That’s why I think about getting them rotated even though they were aligned last fall. But I don’t know, I plan to get the struts replaced, wheels re-aligned and tires replaced prior to my West Virginia trip in October.

The whole thing is kind of stupid, as it really doesn’t matter much. 🤷‍♂️ I get so stressed out about such things. My apartment is falling apart because it’s cheap and the building is shifting the vapor barrier is messed up, so it’s wet and humid all summer. My truck is getting old and needs repairs, but I have a plan to deal with it in September before vacation. 👨‍🔧 I have the money to fix whatever needs to be fixed. But I still worry much too much.

I do need to think about scheduling another therapy session, 👨‍⚕️ come September, because all my stupid anxiety isn’t healthy and it wears me down. I don’t know, I think I might want to try a real psychologist rather then the licensed mental health counselor I am currently seeing, just because he doesn’t seem to take my concerns or anxiety seriously. I think he’s deals much more in field of felons and drug addicts, but my problems are far less serious then what he normally deals with.